dear Gemini (Perspective: Living with Bipolar Disorder)
Posted on: May 4, 2018, by : pplsprssndydear Gemini,
some people say
that you are two faced,
but I disagree.
I say you experience life
in duality.
I say you walk on the edge
of a two-sided coin,
and at any point
it can flip either way.
sometimes you’re heads
and sometimes you’re tails
and you don’t have much say
over which way it goes.
dear Gemini,
I feel for you
because I’m bipolar too,
and I don’t mean that in a descriptive way
it’s something that I live with every day
too often, I hear people say
“oh, the weather is so bipolar”.
but Gemini, our mood disorder
is not their word to use.
They don’t get to say that
Because they don’t know how it feels
to have their moods shift
like the seasons.
Dear Gemini,
The depression that bogs you down
and the mania that sends you soaring
are the forces of your life
that push
and pull you.
they are as inevitable
as the tides of the ocean.
and Gemini, when the tide is high
it feels like you’re swimming in magic,
like you’re the only one around
who can breathe underwater.
and low tide? well…
low tide feels more like
sinking in quicksand.
and I know the former sounds preferable
but really, you’re drowning either way.
dear Gemini,
the polar opposition
of the feelings you feel
is not wrong
or your fault.
seeing the world
through a two-sided lens
has taught you so much.
It’s made you who you are,
And if who you are is two-faced,
I say wear both of your faces with pride.
Gemini,
I know it’s not easy
to be this way
but it’s okay,
you made it here today
and if you are open
With yourself, and with others
You will learn from yourself
And others
will learn from you.
Author: Sloan Marshall
Really enjoyed reading your beautifully painful words.